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Thursday, July 19, 2012

Soaking my idealistic perspective in the pool of reality

Being officially unemployed for almost four months now made me realize a lot of things.

When I was in my senior year, I was so excited to graduate. I was in ecstasy on the day of my graduation because finally, I am a Bachelor's Degree holder -- something that not all of us can have especially in this country. As I have said in my previous blog (which I posted on Tumblr), education here in the Philippines is more of a privilege than of a right. I may not come from a rich family but I can feel that I'm lucky because my parents were able to give me a gift that would last a lifetime -- quality education.

Moving on, I didn't feel how it was being another member of the unemployed sector right after I graduated. We still had review classes after graduation in our classrooms with our classmates and with our professors so it feels the same. I'm still a student. Before we took our board exams, we were given almost a month to prepare ourselves in our own way -- no more review classes; just self-review. I was slowly feeling how shitty it is being a bum. After the board exams, the feelings intensified. I diagnosed myself as having developmental crisis.
Developmental Crisis or Maturational Crisis is a predictable event in the normal course of life such as leaving home for the first time, getting married, having a baby and beginning a career. -- Videbeck
I'm having a hard time dealing with myself. I envy my batchmates who went into med school or law school. I envy my brother who just entered college. I actually envy everyone who is still going to school. It is not because I want to go to med school or law school. No. I'm not into med school. Not even law school. It's just that I envy the carefree life they are still enjoying.

Being a student, I only thought of passing my subjects, chatting with my friends, joining extra-curricular activities and going out. It was totally carefree. I don't have to think of passing the board exams, finding a job, earning a living, helping my family and saving for my future. I don't have to think about the economy, peace in the world, safety and other issues of this country. The issues I had back then when I was still a student nurse are shallow compared to the issues I am having now as an unemployed nurse. Student life is seriously less serious than after-graduation life. Being a student is all about me and my world; nothing else.

Though suffering reality, I'm still not giving up on my dreams. I still have this idealistic view of the world and I am planning to keep it as long as I can. I must keep this fire burning long so that the world won't be capable of destroying me. If I lose this fire, then I'll be hopeless. Further, I won't survive.

As of the moment, I must enjoy and make the most out of my unemployed days. Explore and experiment.  Test limits. Set limits. And most especially, try to live it as carefree as possible.

Kids, the world you'll be entering right after college is not a nice world. It's unfair, harsh and cruel. It is frank, heartless and poisonous. Have those youthful, idealistic dreams and goals last for the longest time possible.  Never lose positive energy. Do not ever think of quitting. You may not understand me right now but I know in the future -- after you have finished schooling -- you will be remembering this while saying, "She was right."

Monday, July 16, 2012

It's still and will always be to infinity and beyond.

To the man whom I'm hoping is worth all the shit I'm going through,


We are not okay. Shouting, yelling, cursing, and hurting. What has happened? What is happening? Even people around us are causing the chaos between us. Did we desire this? I know we didn't. There are things that are trying to push us to cut the red ribbon but I will not allow those things to succeed. There is something about you which keeps me from killing the fire we started more than a year ago. Well, maybe because it's you I've been waiting for. It's you I've long been dying to have -- well, that is what I feel and what I believe. You may be losing grip but I am not. I may sound like a martyr or a clingy bitch but hey, I do not care. I love you and I told you I am intending to hold you for the longest time. I told myself that this time, I'm gonna make it last. I gave in and I am not giving up. No. Not now. Not ever. I know you're still there. You love me and I feel the same. We must stick to that then we'll be fine. It's still to infinity and beyond.

From the woman who could go through shit for you.

Monday, July 09, 2012

How To: Make your own milk tea

Hello guys! I have decided to try making "how tos" and this is my first how to post. Tee hee.

I know a lot of us are becoming milk tea addicts! But sometimes, there are things which hinder us from enjoying a cup of our favorite drink. If you want to enjoy the goodness of milk tea but you're on a tight budget or you don't have time to go out and buy or you're in a place with no accessible milk tea store, I'm gonna teach you to make your own cup at the comfort of your home. (Ooops. I sound like a TV shopping network. Haha!)

What you will need:
  • A bag of black tea
  • Milk (fresh full cream or fresh low fat if you're on a diet)
  • Sugar
Black tea bags (Earl Grey and English Breakfast) are widely available in the market. A box of 20 bags costs around 130 Php to 210 Php, depending on the brand. I have tried Lipton and Twinings. Both taste great. A liter of milk on the other hand costs around 60 Php to 70 Php. I don't have an idea how much sugar costs. Computing... Computing... That's around 11 Php to 16 Php for a cup of black milk tea! Whoa! Oh wait. I haven't told you yet how to do your milk tea! Haha.

How to do it:
  1. Brew a bag of tea.
  2. Pour milk.
  3. Add sugar.
  4. And ice cubes if you want to enjoy it cold.
Viola! Yummy milk tea for less! You could try other tea flavors if you want but I suggest you stick with black teas because fruit and herb infusions don't taste good with milk. Trust me; I've tried it with Peppermint and Chamomile. Haha.

That's it guys! 'Till my next how to post! I hope you enjoy your cup!

Milk Tea Review: Gong Cha Milk Winter Melon Tea

Hello guys! I'm back from a deep slumber! And I'm back with a milk tea review!

My boyfriend and I went on a date. After having dinner at Bon Chon, we decided to buy a cup of milk tea from Gong Cha. 

As I have said on my previous review, I would like to try their Milk Earl Grey Tea on my next visit. Unfortunately, they ran out of earl gray tea so we ended sipping on a cup of Milk Winter Melon Tea instead.

Here it is! Gong Cha Milk Winter Melon Tea.

They said there are three ways to enjoy Gong Cha's House Specials. First is to sip the special cream on top! I tried it and it was heaven! It's so yummy that you would want to order another serving of the cream! Haha. I wonder how they do it. It's creamy and a little bit salty. It's like light cheese and milk. Super delicious!

Trying the second step to enjoy the cup: Tasting the tea! I took a sip and concluded: This is authentic winter melon! It doesn't taste like other milk tea establishments' winter melon tea. It tastes like the winter melon juice I bought when I went to Binondo. Authentic winter melon drink's taste is comparable to a sugar cane juice. Yes, the ones you see in the malls where they squeeze the sugar cane in front of you then they put the juice in the bottle. I'm not a fan of the real winter melon such as Gong Cha's but I like those winter melon flavored teas that other milk tea establishments sell.

Last step: Mix the cream and tea! It looks like milk tea! But it doesn't taste like milk tea. I don't like the taste of their winter melon tea and mixing it with the cream didn't help me appreciate it. Worse, the tea overpowered the taste of the yummy cream. Sad me.

Overall, I didn't enjoy my cup. If ever I will want a taste of real winter melon in the future, I will not spend 95Php just to taste it. I'd rather buy myself a bottle of sugar cane juice which costs around 20-30Php. I wasn't really satisfied so I'll make sure I will have a cup of Milk Earl Grey Tea on my next visit. I have a strong feeling that I will enjoy it for I am a fan of black teas. Tee hee.

That's it for now guys! 'Till my next review! 

PS: To all authentic winter melon drink fans, I could suggest two places to go: Binondo and Gong Cha. :)